Smile :)

Im now in the phase to improve myself...

to be much more better...

in studies, diet & money management...

but the truth is...

im not improving anything...

my weight are increasing, my money is depleting, my hair are losing n so on...
everything doesn't seem right rite now...

i need help from anyone...

not from my roommates or classmate... because in front of them...

im happy & joy full but deep inside...im not...

nghahahahahha...*mood disorder*

yeah its kinda true...

the sweetest smile hide the darkest secret...

nyte...

adios...

out..

batok...

tiap mlm dh mkn ubat batok b4 tdo sbb tiap kali bagn dr tdo mesti tekak penoh kahak eeuuww....yg kne paksa kuar... dem sunggoh...

tp apkn daya saya duduk di perlis..*x psl*...

argghhh mmg ak x puas hati duk sini...

tu je...

sekian...

nyte...

* i need love to fill my boredom...luckily i found u...*

miss u...

hahaha...

adios...

nyte again...

Zzzzzzz...

(~.~)

Ok ni skarang serius rse cm nk jln2... kt sini kt perlis ni mmg mcm ntah pape...
pekan kecik dan dh mati after kul 8 mlm...
suhu panas tahap gila babi...
tmpt paling sejuk kt kangar adlh di bilik pegawai perubtan kt spital yg ad aircon, yg sejuk gle yg serius x tipoo...
orng kata makanan kt perlis murah...ak kata makanan kt perlis bullshit... mknn kt spital dia mahal thp moksha... harga x masuk akal... ade ke patut mknn kt spital lebih mahal dr mknn kt tempat len... weh even spital kt KL pon x semahal spital kt kangar.. tp x tipoo mknn dia sedap gk la... keraboo ato song tham dia serius leh bla.. (orng kata ni mknn siam...ak kata menatang ni sedap..dats all)
kalo rse dh jd dermawan tu sila la melantak mkn kt spital...
duet bnyk habis n x puas hati tol...

ak x de mende xcited duduk kt sini...
rse serabut kepala n mmg x leh nk njoy sgt...
wayang x de... mall paling grand pon The Store.. yg ntah pape.. n tingkat 4 aircon slow... pegi mall naek tingkat 4 dh sat basah ketiak...

saket hati betol...


tp nk ikot kn thnx god sbb spital kangar cantek..better thn kulim.. cuma slack jamban sume yg ak g sume kotor n bebau...cm haram tol...

so far duk sini cm x de target nk move forward.... slalunya ak target nk menghabeskn minggu yang penoh kepayahan dengan gaygihnye sbb semate2 nk tgk movie ato kuar g mkn kt mall...tp kt sini menyedihkn...x de g mane2 pon...

ak bosan gle duk sini...rse menmpuh rutin2 harian dgn penuh tabah n kesabaran...
hopefuly ak diberikn ketabahn menghadapi hari2 yg mendatang...

ok sekarang sambong balek study...
pasal gagal ginjal...

adios...

bye

*skrng tgh ok...kalo tgk serabut mesti ckp merapu x de point...*

Now...

Now m writing its not about fun anymore...

Truth hurts...

write about it always and eventually you will overcome it...

now its not the time for fantasies...

realities always speak the truth...

so why people keep telling lies?

because certain lies eventually are an excuses...

and excuses can save us from hurting ourselves...

now i will express my feeling, my thought, my ideas without boundaries...

so starting right now...it will become personal...

not about u, not about others...

but only about me n people i care the most...

which is U...
.
.
.
.
.
.
. Yea...the capital U...

U know wat i mean..

no excuses anymore...

right now, right here...

nyte...

i miss U so much but my love toward u hv fade...

right now, right here...

i never believe in long distance relationship...

its too painful...

nyte nyte....

see u soon...

very soon..

adios..

Practical....

bila practical semua yg dulu dh blajar rse sia-sia...

mmg lupa abes...x prnh tau...x prnh ingt...even rse x prnh buat...

sedih...so F-ing Pathetic....

nghahahahah....tp so far rse hepi pg practical..

sbb dpt jmpe orng baru n rasa new nvironment..

ok ak dh stat merapu...

ak rse cm x de future...

it remains elusive...

so unclear...

and so devastating....

perhaps im thinking too much...

no more fear..

no more regret...

there is no turning back...

ok im totally fuck up..

nyte..

:(

Everything u says matters to me....

Ngahahahahahaha....

Mengong tol...

Sory sbb tetunjuk perangai childish dpn ko...

Ooooo Demmm

Its supose 2b a secret...

but not anymore to u...

Silence...

Thinking...

Nahhhhhhhh...

Miss U...

Ngahahhahaha...

Ok gila..
coz..

Im..

:(

Y?

Seperti bese angan2 berblogging aku x kekal lama....
ak terlalu sibuk untuk realiti drpd maya...

ooo demm...

penat... n letih...

juz leh tulis kalo ad cuti panjang....

skrng tgh ad krisis pelik....

ngn ex-i-assume-bestfren n ngn someone special...
yg ngn ex-i-assume bestfren tu krisisnye sgt pelik...
pk2 balik rse ntah pape..tp tu dr sudut ak...

dem...

may b ak yg slh...

ntah r...

yg krisis ngn sumone special tu...ermm ak dh rse yg dia sudah mula membosankn diriku..

adkh ak cpt bosan?.... nafsu manusia x pernah cukup...

ak takot gle pk masa dpn..skrng fokus kt masa skrng....

takot...

rse syng kt dia dh mulai hilang...

hari demi hari makin pudar...

ad side diri ak ckp lupakn dia cpt...lg cpt lg bagos..

side 1 lg ckp..ak lonely ak perlukan someone special..practice menyayangi orng lain..

when d rite person come u will know...

tp sayang ak kt dia makin kurang...dh x mcm dulu... dia jaoh n dunia dia sgt berbeza..


afterall...

kita mmg x mungkin akan ad future....

x pernah ak pikir jaoh psl hubungn kita...

sbb..

ak takot gila...

ni ujian ak paling besar dlm hidup...

Y u open ur heart to me...

sooner u will b suffer...

so do i....

i luv u...

but

i cannot b with u..

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